I just really want to not be here any more. I get rattled now every time I hear about someone graduating high school or college, or getting married and doing so well for themselves. Everyone seems to have their life in order, and I’m here not doing shit. I haven’t even graduated yet, and it looks like I won’t be for another year, and that’s if I work up the courage to go to class every day. It hurts knowing that I can’t do the one thing that can make my mother proud. Failure is probably the perfect word to describe my life. Synonyms include: letdown, fuckup, and loser.I feel like shit every single day. I just wish my mom knew how I felt.

I feel like dying every single day.